Am really not able to lead this life anymore , , ,

March 2nd is fast approaching . .

It been a year that I ‘ve lost U . .

I tried to be strong . . had been strong I can say . .

When I was staying with u on MARCH 2nd night . . I had only one thing on my mind “complete your ceremonies and rituals perfectly so U can be happy even in the eternal world . . and then all three of us can quit our lives and join U , , “

But dad may be had more sense than me . . he did say “U cannot escape , WE ‘ve done a great sin and which is Y we are supposed to face this turmoil and we can’t escape it . . It ll haunt us in lives together . . “

“BUT DAD!!! I can’t have my brother back ..

ITS SIVADITYA SREERAMANENI that I love so much . . and I can’t love anybody else . . “

IT won’t hurt me even a tiny bit as it hurts now . .

I never thought a moment after U Aditya was born that I had to think only about myself . . .

IT is we that I should think about and as time went by ITs my buddy bro whom I should put before myself . .

I learned all this from U aditya . .

U have been my teacher, guide , my best enemy what not . . U have been everything . .

U have shown me how a person can be towards a relationship ..

TRUE I call U selfish , , but the fact is I learned how not to be selfless from U . .

Remembering “how U asked ‘Tatha’ for chocolates for me instead of gobbling down at the age of 2 is one lesson of love I learned from U “

Love U . . and I am definitely hating every moment of this life . . of not being able to U ..

4 Comments

  1. Anuroop reddy

    March 20, 2011 at 2:38 am

    I m sorry for ur brother!, May his soul rest in peace 🙂

  2. anurag_im kool

    July 5, 2011 at 4:01 pm

    its so moving and iam so sorry,

  3. Anonymous

    September 10, 2011 at 12:04 pm

    i salut you for ur love towards ur brother….you are one of the best sisters i had ever seen….it was so touching…

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