Am really not able to lead this life anymore , , ,
March 2nd is fast approaching . .
It been a year that I ‘ve lost U . .
I tried to be strong . . had been strong I can say . .
When I was staying with u on MARCH 2nd night . . I had only one thing on my mind “complete your ceremonies and rituals perfectly so U can be happy even in the eternal world . . and then all three of us can quit our lives and join U , , “
But dad may be had more sense than me . . he did say “U cannot escape , WE ‘ve done a great sin and which is Y we are supposed to face this turmoil and we can’t escape it . . It ll haunt us in lives together . . “
“BUT DAD!!! I can’t have my brother back ..
ITS SIVADITYA SREERAMANENI that I love so much . . and I can’t love anybody else . . “
IT won’t hurt me even a tiny bit as it hurts now . .
I never thought a moment after U Aditya was born that I had to think only about myself . . .
IT is we that I should think about and as time went by ITs my buddy bro whom I should put before myself . .
I learned all this from U aditya . .
U have been my teacher, guide , my best enemy what not . . U have been everything . .
U have shown me how a person can be towards a relationship ..
TRUE I call U selfish , , but the fact is I learned how not to be selfless from U . .
Remembering “how U asked ‘Tatha’ for chocolates for me instead of gobbling down at the age of 2 is one lesson of love I learned from U “
Love U . . and I am definitely hating every moment of this life . . of not being able to U ..